TeenageInfinity

I took a deep breath I counted to three A picture in my head Of who they wanted me to be They wanted me to be normal Happy and kind They never thought That I would be blind Not blind by the meaning But blind in the heart Blinded by darkness Blinded in the dark I walk around lifeless My heart beating but dead A walking corpse I am lost inside my head Things have no meaning At least not anymore I am not how I was How I was once before I am one of the living But also one of the dead A part of me is missing I hang on by a thread I hung my head low Took one final blow I step off the edge Saying one final vow "I will no

You played me like a game You should feel the pain I don't know the first time I felt so worthless Just begging for a purpose I don't know the first day I didn't feel beautiful All I know is not eating every day because usual I don't know the first day I cut But now I am called a worthless slut I don't know when the first time I told people I was fine and alright It was all a lie On the inside I just wanted to die I only sighed when I told them I was fine I never showed any suspicious signs What where they to think? They believed Soon I got used to wearing long sleeves I don't know the first day I refused to eat For two years

She is proud of herself and she wont tell you why It has been over a week since she last tried But the voices don't stop and today they won Will she go for a razor or end it all with a gun After hours of crying and arguing with herself She gives in and opens the hidden box on the shelf Overwhelmed with emotions she selects her blade Oddly delighted with the choice she's made Once again, she takes a razor to her thigh She didn't feel a thing and didn't even cry Well, there's pain of course, but it's mistaken for a praise She's lacking in judgment because the feeling of daze She sits there emotionless, blood spilling from the slits